I Am So Glad To Be Alive

I am glad I chose to wait — for time does heal everything.

Laila Khairina
2 min readApr 21, 2022
Photo by OC Gonzalez on Unsplash

I could have never imagined I will able to get to this point.

Life used to be so bleak, so hopeless. Passing through days alive was a suffocating thing to do.

I hated myself a lot. I dreaded my reflection in the mirror. I hated the idea of showing my face to people.

I felt like I was unworthy of love.

I treated myself unkindly. Showering myself with judgment was my way to correct myself so I could be normal. I couldn’t accept myself as she was. I always felt I didn’t…fit in.

To fit in among happy people was my only wish. I was unhappy and it shows in my dull face. I wanted to laugh and actually mean it, not forcing it.

And now years later, my wish is granted.

The story is long, but eventually, I get here. The suffocating feeling I experienced whenever I met or talked to people has long gone. I couldn’t feel any more alive than this very moment.

I am looking forward to waking up every single day. Even in the days when it is awfully boring or frightfully mundane. Even on the days when I feel like things are going to be more difficult than yesterday.

I now have a dream. I am brave enough to have a dream.

That matters a lot. That changed everything.

I have brought back my old self. She was there all the time — deeply buried beneath the darkness that used to cloud me — waiting to resurface.

I am glad I chose to wait — for time does heal everything.

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Laila Khairina

Obviously a new writer. Will appear when she feels like it.